I'm So Sorry.

Sorry I was being harsh to you.
I just had to be mean.
I dont want myself to face another heartbreak.
I cant be so sure that you wont hurt me again.

After what had happened on the 20th April, I dont really trust guys.
Somehow rather I gave up in having relationships.

Sometimes I do feel lonely, but the loneliness will be killed when I thought of that night.
Sometimes I do want you back but when I remembered about that night, it made me stopped wanting you back.
Sometimes I do miss you badly, but when I recalled everything that had happened, I just thought that its just another process of getting over you.
I did tried to hate you. Saying that you're a liar, saying that you're just another typical heartbreaker, saying that you're mean. Saying that you're a jerk. Saying all bad things about you. Wrote bad words about you.
Hoping that I could really get over you, but, I really couldnt.

And why do you even came back when I thought that I've got over you?
You left me with a million questions running on my mind.

This is why, I just desperately have to say those words to you.
I just have to be mean so that everyone knows I'm not the girl who used to always be nice to people especially guys.
I'm So Sorry. ='(