I did something stupid at 3am, but I was extremely happy :)

3AM. 29th November 2010.

On my bed.

I dialed IA's number. Thought he's asleep. But unfortunately/luckily, NO. =D

He answered.

But then I didn't know what to say, so I just keep my self silent.

And so do him.

We're like mute for 10secs then I hung up the phone.

Stupiid us. HAHA

Then I called him again. Stupid me. 

Then he picked up.

"Hello"

"Yeah"

"Irfan kan?"

"Yea"

"Not asleep yet?"

"No."

"You tenga buat ape?"

"I tenga main game"

"Oh tadi Liverpool menang ke?"

"Kalaah."

"Ha kalah? Serious?"

"Yeah kalah"

"Gila loser liverpool. You support loser"

".........."

"Ey k lah, you pergi la main game. Saje kacau. Nak call org lain pulak. Bye"

"Ha k."

I think he was offended by the Liverpool loser thing. hihi

What to do, I tercakap. HAHA

But anyways, I was very happy to hear his voice.

Awwww. Hihi 

After I hung up the phone, I was like, sooo happy :)

So thats all for now. HAHA

For IA, which I know you wouldnt read this, but still,

Thanks a lot for answering my call eventho just for a few minutes.

Sorry about the loser thing. :))

And thanksss again for these past few days you made me happy. :)

I wish I could get My Edward back. At least, as friends. *sigh*

Cerita best :D *SS*

HAHA
Dua or tiga malam yang lepas, ada misscall at almost 3AM.
guess whoooo? :D
aww aww. at first aku langsung tak teringat number siapa.
but seems so familiar.

then teliti sepuluh kali atau lebih, baru teringat.
aww awwww number IA! haha
i know, its so typical of him to misscall me at odd times.
then he'll say tersalah tekan.
so, aku perli dia, "whats with the misscall at almost 3am in the morning?tertekan lagi?"
i thought he wont reply.
but, he replied. he said, "saja call, haha"
i was like "wthell is wrong with himmmm? apahal mcm baik pulak?"
but nevermind.
eventhough its just a misscall and short texts, i, still happy. haha!
okay thats all byeee :)

Selamat Hari Tua yang Ceria ;)

Heres a simple birthday wish for the 29th November-ians :)

 Megat Muhammad Syafiq bin Megat Mohd Ali Hanafiah,

Happy 17th Birthdayyy! :)

Hope you'll have a great 17! :)

May Allah bless you always, semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki :)

Thanks for all the memories of you and me :)

Youve been such a great friend. hee :D

Happy Birthday again pendek! :)

Annur Amanina Abdul Manaf, HAPPY FIFTEENTH BIRTHDAY!

May Allah bless you always.

Semoga panjang umur and murah rezeki.

Semoga bertambah hot and pretty.

You're one of my bestmates, since kindergarten!

Its been almost 12 years we've been friends. hee :D

Thanks for being such a great and nice and loud friend.

Hoping to meet you this coming December!

I lalalove you ninaaaa nino! <3

Nadiha, :)

Happy 16th Birthday!

May Allah bless you always, :)

Its been almost 2 years or 3 years kot we've been friends since Myspace. 

I adore youu! sebab you lawa and cool! :D

Okay I know its a bit awkward posting a birthday wish tiba tiba like this sebab tak pernah rapat. haha

but, anyways, Happy Sixteenth Birthday again and Have a blast!

Hope you'll smile always and stronger and prettier and goodluck in whatever you do! :)

Syarifah Shameerah Al Junid,

Happy 15th Birthday!

May Allah bless you,

May all your wishes come true.

Thanks for being my friend since I was 11.

All those 'sekolah agama' memories, I wontt forget! haha

Hope you'll have a great life ahead! :D

Pijak di Bumi yang Nyata.

Saya nak pakai spec!
Tapi mata masih sihat. :(

mungkin?

mungkin ada yg btanya kemana aku?
Tak mungkin. Haha.
Jangan tnya la. Nanti sampai masa aku datang balik,
Chill bebeh.
Pada teman2 yg nak ajak lepak, mintak maaf, aku sedang bermeditasi. Jangan la cariii. Nanti aku datang merangkak pada korang. Haha.
Baiii,
Aku rinduuuuuuu semuaaanya :D
Aku rindu mama ayah, abg afi, abg adi, aiman and alan. Dan faceboooook! -.-

Anugerah Jerit.

Shoutawards 2010 was quite dissapointing.
The sound system was bad, the ticket management sucks, the crowd were not that awesome.
The lineups were just so-so.

But, theres something awesome which is, theres 3 effin hotties sitting in front of me *eyebrows*
I was attracted to the silent one. HAHAHA
My friend dared me to ask for his facebook, but I didnt. No way! :P

So the shoutawards finished at almost 12,
I went out, then I saw Alif, he was efffin cute! and tall.
So I called his name, then he turned around, then he smiled and waved.
Awww hes so cuuutteee! haha

so I waited for my brother and his friends and whatever.
While 'cuci mata' outside of the stadium.
Theres hotties everywhere. *eyebrows eyebrows* HAHA
I saw a guy who I met at worldstage last year. but didnt greet him.
Then took some pictures of myself. HAHA

So at 1, we ciaoz.
Went for supper at NC,
Then went home.

And, I heard that my Red devils won 2-0.
Chelsea lost 1-0.
Arsenal lost also.
*sorry i speak broken english*

Omygod. chelsea lost again? ;P

Aku memang kuat jealous -__-

Haihhhh. Kenapa tak boleh avoid doo jealousy nii?

Even aku and IA dah lamaaa tak ada apapa,

Tapi aku still jealous.

Yeah sekarang dia ada girlf baru.

Form 4 pulak.

Hot sudah tentu. Satu kemestian.

Chinese ke malay aku tak pasti.

Tapi mata sepet.

And aku dah expect memang diorang akan couple sebab cara wall to wall tu memang SAMA macam cara wall to wall aku dengan IA.

Cuma perempuan tu boleh tahan lagi gatal dari aku la :))

Perempuan tu panggil nama yang SAMA aku panggil IA.

MANA BOLEHH ! aku je boleh panggil nama tuuu :((

And perempuan tu ada suka lagu yang thaqif nyanyi, SAMA macam aku.

Asal mesti nak sama? HAHA

Okay whatever. Biarlah. Dah kebetulan kan?

Yang paling aku tak berkenan, dia dapat lelaki yang SAMA yang aku pernah dapat.

Cb! hahaha

Haih, bila la nak get over ni.

Haritu kata last post pasal dia, tapi ni dah macam aku pulak reporter pasal hidup dia -_-

Dia dah 2 lepas aku,

Yang aku ni, melepaskan 2 orang sebab dia. sebab tak boleh get over dia.

Nampak kebodohan aku kat situ?

Terang terang kan? -____________-

Haihh.

Bilaaaaa ni nak get over?

Korang agak agak bila aku nak get over?

Ni dah masuk 2 bulan. still tak boleh.

Macam manaaa?

hari penat, entri malas.

Tadi nak blog something.

Tapi dah macam hilang idea nak brag panjang2.

So macam malas pula. hahah

Mamat pendek baju hitam yang aku nampak 3 kali kt KLCC tadi handsome :DD

Nasib baik tak jumpa kali keempat dan kelima. kalau tak, tak pasal2 diorg dare minta number dia. hahaha :))

So harini berjalan bersama cousin tersayang yang sebaya, siapa lagi kalau bukan Nabilah and Zhafri.

Dan suprisingly, kami dengan rela hati membawa adik masing masing.

Zhafri bawak Ayip, Iela bawak Wawa andd Nurul bawak Aiman.

Baiknya hati kitorang kali nii.

Oh dan 3 tetamu jemputan iaitu Syahir andd, Aliyah and lakinya. haha

So pukul 11 dh smpai kat KLCC, pegi makan, lepak2 tunggu Iela datang.

then pegi beli ticket wayang, lepak setarbaks, lepastu tengok wayang cerita Harry Potter.

Um, cerita dia, okay laaaa. but aku bukan big fan, so tak berapa nak minat sangat.haha

Then dari KLCC, split.

Aku, aliyah dan lakinya pergi Fahrenheit sebab nak masuk Uniqlo.

Lain semua hal sendiri.

Then sampaiii je Fahrenheit, hujan lebat pulaaakkk.

Masuk Uniqlo, jalan2, cari baju yang berkenan, tapi tak ada. banyak sweaters je.

so, keluar, dan fikir macam mana nak pergi BB dalam hujan.

dengan judinya *gamble nya* kami bertiga berlari meredah hujan sampai lot10 :D

then ternampak ada org jual payung, bantaiii belii. dh desperate. hahaha

then jalan sampai BB.

jalan2 lepas tu gerak low yat.

then makan mcd, lepastu balik.

malas nak cerita banyak. siapa pun nak baca, hahah

baiiii penat. selamat malam!

Another Perfect Day :)

3 Anggerik's class party was great.

We ate kfc snack plate each one, 2 slices of pizza from pizza hut, a chocolate cake, carbonated drinks, twisties.

We also got a small towel as our door gift :)

The class fund was really worth paying for :D

So petang, I went to Jipa's place with Nani.

We lepak lepak, gossip some stuffs,

then we went to the playground, took pictures till 630,

then went back to jipa's room and did something stupid.

and we burst our laughs out loud :D

it was a perfect day, with the loved ones :)

Hurt, :|

I dont know why, hidup aku mmg macam pathetic gilaaa right now.
Haihh,
I keep on crying every single night without fail.

I dont get enough sleep,
I keep on having headaches.
I dont have the appetite to eat a lot like I used to.

I dont even know whats wrong with me.

Haih.
Lately I hurt myself a lot.
yesterday I played with a knife. hahaha
but nothing happened . haha

I dont care if I got hurt anyways. haha
Haihhh,
Seriously I feel like I have nothing to think of.
Everyday, I'll cry. HAHHAA stupid me.

See, my blogpost pun merepek merapu lebih punya lebih.
Seriously rindu Frhn Bdri and Irfn Atffe. tk tipu la sial rindu gilo.

Haihh, stupid me. stupid dumb dumb pulak tu.

Pfft.

I am not strong enough to move on.
I've never believe in the "better guys" term anyways.
Dari dulu belajar bercinta smpai sekarang tak pernah percaya benda macam tu.
I dont know why.

Tonight,

I dont know why, lately I keep on sulking on unnecessary things and ended up hurting other people. :'(

What's happening to me?

I dont even know what the hell is wrong with me.

And I burst out, all of sudden.
Thinking of everything.

I keep on saying to myself, 'Aku tak ada apapa dengan dia apahal aku nak over niii'
Then aku nangis. Ape bodoh aku ni. Pastu aku gelak, sebab aku mental.

Bruno Mars' songs really calmed me down ;)

I found a song, the title is 'Turn Around'
I'm not sure if its originally by Bruno Mars, but I love it :)
The lyrics, "Everytime I try to leave, something tells me to turn around, cause how could I ever leave, the only one that holds me down"

I keep on trying to leave some people, but I cant. I love them too much.
Even how hard I tried, I still cant. I'll go crazy and I'll cry day and night if I left them.
I'll feel absolutely empty if I'm not with them.

I still wonder, when can I stop being pathetic like this? Pfft.

Oh and, I am trying to find the guy who could unlocked my heart.
sebab I rasa, I cant be with my own bestfriend, or else, it'll ruin the bestfriendship. because I'm worried that I'll break his heart. I'm a heartbreaker anyway. and he wouldnt want me anyways. haha
Okay whatever stop.

Haihh, jealousy jealousy jealousy till me myself became lousy.

Malam ni, fikiran aku berlari lari fikir benda benda yang ridiculous tapi aku rasa macam masuk akal.

Korang, doakan aku jangan sakit mental.
Seriously aku rasa something wrong dengan diri aku.
Nak cari masa untuk kenalpasti je apa masalah aku.

Goodnight, Mimpi Indah :)

Somebody to love.

This song keeps playing on my mind.
Every single day, when I listened to the radio or my playlist, there'll be this song.
I keep on thinking of the lyrics.
I like the part, 'Money cant find me, somebody to love' :)

Haha, but nowadays semua orang pandang DUIT untuk kasih sayang :)
tipu kalau kau cakap kau tak. BLUEK :P

Its hard to find somebody to love nowadays.
Not all guys or girls can be trusted.

Yeah I do admit, sometimes I feel empty, bored,
And the most horrible thing about me being single is, I cant even move on.
I keep thinking of the previous relationships.

I better stop bragging now, I'm off for a shower.

And, start searching fr somebody to love.
Anyone interested, do send me your resume. HAHAHA
sumpah bunyi mcm desperate.
okay byeee, take care people XOXO