Raya Raya Raya :)

semua orang dah sibuk update blog beraya since first day raya lagi :P
tapi saya baru nak update hari ini :D

okay ceritera rayaa! macam2 jadii.

incident pertama sekali yg membuatkan raya kurang best, ACCIDENT.
serius.
pada pagi sabtu, a day before raya.
kereta langgar kereta.
masa tu nak pergi ziarah kubur, then ada satu aunty ni, dye nk kluar simpang umah dia, and rumah dye kat sharp bend, so dye maybe tk perasan kete kitorang, walaupun tak laju, maka bercium lah proton gen2 berwarna biru dengan toyota estima silver di jalan yg sgt sempit itu.

okay then uncle kitorg dtg amek. bla bla blaa.. kete kitorg tk terok sgt, just kemek kt belah kiri, but, tht gen2, depan dye mmg jatuh. quite bad.
then settle la, buat police report and all stuffs.
*btw, suami pompuan tuh kerek mcm mintak kaki saiz 8 :)



HARI RAYA PERTAMA
- bangun pagiii. beratur, amik nombor nak masuk toilet untuk mandi. toilet ada 3, orang ada 30. HAHA.
- kemas2 tempat tidur.
- makan ketupat, sambal goreng, sambal ikan, satay goreng, kuah kacang. *phewwh marvellous*
- bersiap2 pegi sembahyang raya.
- sembahyang raya.
- balik, makeup2, then sesi salam duit raya :D
- then gerak gy umah on my mum's side
- makan nasi briyani daging. *makan lagi, sedaaaapp! :D
- then baru lah beraya dari pukul 12 smpai 3.
- balik, mandi, siap2, pegy tahlil kt umah my aunty pulak.
smpai pukul 6 :D
- malam, semua melepak kat rumah.
- pukul 10, siap2, keluar jalan2 *yg muda muda*
- pulang rumah dan tidur pada pukul 2 pagi :P

HARI RAYA KEDUA
- raya lagi laaa.
- nothing really interesting.
- we went raya bout 7 houses :D

HARI RAYA KETIGA
- raya raya raya.
- 6 houses kot :D

HARI RAYA KEEMPAT
- singapore!! :D
- masuk pukul 1 cmtuh. terus beraya. :D
- we went to 10 houses. from 1pm to 12am :D

HARI RAYA KELIMA
- stil in singapore.
- SHOPPING DAYYY!!
- i bought a bottle of perfume. it's cheap! :D
- i bought a pair of shoes.
- i bought junk foods.
- i bought bottles of barbicans.
- and my feet hurts after i bought all those. haha.
- got home at 11pm. :D

HARI RAYA KEENAM
- keluar dari singapore at 11 am.
- went home, send our bags home.
- tido :D
- at 3pm, wnt to tebrau city, jalan2 shopping lagi
- 4pm, go and pick up some things.
- 5pm, went beraya another house :D
- balik at 7pm, mandi mandi, siap2
- went beraya another 2 houses.

HARI RAYA KETUJUH
- 1pm, gerak to rengit. my cousin's mother in law's place. raya la.
- then another house.
- then went to batu pahat.
- dinner. and went to shah alam! :D

so my conclusion, RAYA is kinda fuuunn! :D
and and and, i got to collect bout rm500 duit raya :D

Salam buat teman-teman.

Salam Aidilfitri.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
Mintak maaf dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki.
sorry kalauu ada terasa hati dengan perbuatan, tutur kata dll. :)

p/s : akan tidak online sehingga habis cuti raya dan sehingga internet pulih sepenuhnya :)

Daydreamer & Wisher.

I'm A DAYDREAMER.
so what?
its normal for a human being to be a daydreamer.
dont tell me u dont daydream?
not even once?
what are you?
a toy robot with batteries? *ceh nk jugak mcm title entry ZA.
a teddy bear with cute faces?

admit that.
u're just a normal human bein.
u breathe, u talk, u eat, u sleep,
u DAYDREAM!


lately, i keep on daydreaming whenever i feel like i want to.
idk why.
life is so stressful.
so i decided to daydream to release some of it.

i daydream because people around me ignored me.
my friends especially. *say HA HA.*
thats why i daydream.

i daydream, plus, i wish.
i wish i had better life.
i wish i had a super sweet handsome and caring boyfriend by now. HAHAHA just kidding.
i wish i am out of that bloody boring school.
i wish i have some of nice human being who really cares about me.
i wish i'm not as pathetic as i am right now.
i wish i'm not as idiot as i am right now.
and how i wish all these wishes could come true.

those are wishes.
wishes tht may come true and may not.
so i daydream.
in those daydreams, those wishes come true.
so i feel, daydreaming can make me happy.

but then, it's like i dont have a normal human bein's life.
i'm weird ryte?
people said so.
some of them may think i'm just a pathetic idiot little kiddo who needs attention by blogging.
some of them may think i'm a normal little kid who craps a lot and doesnt need to be cared for.
some of them may also think i'm just another useless hopeless lifeless teenager.
and thats why they dont really care or they dont give a damn about me.
they think i'm crap. *proud face*

i dont care.
its myself.
i daydream, i wish, i dont care wht the hell are they thinking.

u may look i'm happy from the outside.
but deep inside, pain strikes me every single second.

i'm Nurul Akmal.
i'm 14.
and i'm a DAYDREAMER THAT IS DAYDREAMING A DREAM and A WISHER THAT KEEPS ON WISHING SOME WISHES.

Nur Aimi Jamshah <3

i miss you! :D
it was so much fun with you around.
at first, kinda think tht you're just whatever teacher.
but you turned out to be an awesome teacher!

all the games, sing-alongs, and everything tht u taught me and my friends during ur class,
i'll never forget.
i appreciate those things you taught us.

for sure,
i'll miss your voice screamin at some of my classmates who pissed you off,
i'll miss the way u teach us,
i'll miss your smiles and jokes,
and i'll miss talking to you about lots of stuffs.
and for sure, i'll miss your high heels! haha :)

oh and, i'll miss making cute faces and saying please to you and cikgu amar to allow me enter the staff room when you both stand and block the door almost every morning on assembly. :D

hope to see you again teacher.
you're not just an awesome teacher,
you're also an awesome good friend.
and a stunning model too. ngee :)

thanks a lot for those sweet memories,
thanks fr ur patience teaching 2A,
and thnks fr bein such a great teacher for me :)

may Allah bless you and gudluck fr the rest of ur life :)

p/s : sorry my english is bad. haha. :)

movin on.

everything is changing.
everybody is leaving.
leaving everything behind.

it's okay if u stay away.
i'll be gone in any day.
because pain strikes me everyday.

you don't know.
plus you wouldn't know.
cause i'm keeping it low.

i'm not the same me.
and you're not the same you.
i'm livin my life.
and you're livin yours.

it's time to move on.
leave all those things behind.
it won't hurt you.
but it will hurt me.
but that's just fine with me.

kesimpulan cerita perasaan :P

HAHA.
saya telah menyatakan tentang itu kepada si abang, shamsul nazrin, and then en,
macam kurang ajo gila dia cakap apa tau,
'eeii si pendek tuh? takyah aa. tak restu'
HAHAHA
bodoh ohh.
bia ah org suke dia pun. pendek2 pun, comel. tak macam kau ah bungek :P :P

tak tapi betul.
dia cakap mmg tak agree. sebab en, dia kenal sangat budak tu. HAHA,
dia cakap H lagi okay and lagi hot. haha.





okay tu mukadimah jea sebenarnya.

serius, saya berhenti berharap dah. bagus en?
kali ni gila gila tapi cepat berhenti.
satu kemajuan yang maju okay! :D



izzaty, athirah, saya tetap perlukan kalian.
cepat cepat lah abes trial :(



okay dah. saya tak suka dia dah. lets start a new one okay!
oh btw, tau takk.
saya berangan, HAHA

saya berangan kan, pada tarikh 090909,
pada pukul 09:09 am atau 09:09pm,
ada satu laki yang datang mintak saya jadi gf dia.
ohh gila best. HAHA.

tapi kalau angan2 itu tak tercapai tahun ni, saya tunggu tahun depan,
101010, pukul 10:10am atau 10:10pm.

so ready yea para jejaka, HHAHA.
*weh podaci nrul, mana ada orang nak kau*

okay dah. selamat tinggal. nanti update lagi,
btw, puasa best!
nanti nak dekat raya, saya anta e-kad okay ?
takpun, sms saya nama, alamt, nombor tepon.,
saya anta sistem pesanan ringkas. SMS laa.
*ini serius, especially buat teman2 yg dh lost contact.

oky selamat tinggal lagi.

kamus hidup.

serius.
perasaan makin parah.
kepala makin kritikal.
hati makin suka.

keadaan diri sekarang.

sangat suka dia.
dan, gembira, dan tiba tiba,
seperti sebuah kotak besi jatuh dari langit.
menghenyak, menghentam, menghancur diri aku.

memang tak akan.
itu sudah pasti.
memang dalam jangkaan.

maaf entry ini agak kabut.
aku taip apa yang melintasi fikiran.
so memang kelam. tambah kabut.

aku makin suka dia.
tapi.
aku rasa sampai saat ini saja.
aku tak mahu mengharap.
harapan itu sakit. :)

maka, mulai saat ini,
aku cuba buang yang kritikal, parah dan suka itu jauh jauh.
biar lah dia.
hidup dia.
dan aku tahu, aku adalah antara tulisan tulisan kecil dalam kamus hidup dia.

lagipun,
aku mungkin tulisan arial atau times new roman atau apapa tulisan lain bersaiz 12 atau 14 atau mngkin lebih besar dalam kamus hidup orang lain.
yang jelasnya lebih besar tulisan itu dalam kamus hidup orang lain dari kamus hidup dia.
maka baik aku sayang orang yang menulis nama aku sebesar 12 atau 14 atau nilai yg mungkin lebih besar.

dan aku tahu antara orang yang menulis nama aku dengan tulisan bersaiz 12 atau 14 atau lebih besar itu adalah keluarga aku.
mama, ayah dan adik beradikku.
itu sudah cukup buat aku.

orang lain, terpulang buat mereka.
aku kurang peduli.
asal keluarga aku masih menggunakan tulisan 12 atau 14 atau lebih besar buat aku dalam kamus hidup mereka, sudah memadai.

uhm.

idk nak letak title apa.

oh no. u knw wht,
i hav a confession.
haha.

ni crite suke suke yea.

hm.
i hav feeling fr a guy.
eventhough kitorg tk pnah cakap, just stkt cment2 pic kt myspace.
jumpe pn pna skali jea. itupon kejap. stkt salam2 jea.
tpi aku suke dye oh.
haisyh.

i can see tht he's a good guy.
thru his blog, his page on myspace.
HAHA.

but he has a girlfriend. so i guess theres no chance fr me. LOL.
haha.
tpi kalau dye single pun, bukan dye nak aku.
sbb aku tak hot. haha. serious ni.

okay okay. serious ni.
saya suka dia.
harini bru saya realize smenanye saya sangat suka diaa!!
haha.
siapa dia uh, bia rahsie aje :D

ey tapi serius ni.
entah kenapa rasa hari ni nak blog pasal ni.

buat mamat nama A, sy suka awak.
*ceh nurul, macam lah dia baca blog kau*

wey serius sy suke dye nii!!!!
hm. haha.

okay sudah.
sy ada crush yg sangat besar pada dia.
tpi serius sy sgt suka dia.
dah lama sebenarnya.
tapi saya diam2.


okay dah. habis situ saja okay.

Its All About LEAVING.

laying on my bed,
waiting by the phone,
wondering if you will ring me now,
or maybe text me even just a word.
yesterday,
you hung up the phone,
without a single word,
not as you always do,
then I remembered,
you said you won't leave me,
but now I can feel that you're leaving me.

I've once said I'll leave you,
but not forever,
then when I've leave you for a period of time,
i realize that I cant go on without you,
so then i decided not to leave you again,
but now, it's the other way around,
you're the one leaving me,
you left me with thousands of question marks running on my mind,
and I'm trying so hard to go on with my life.

I know it hurts you so much,
but I'd never thought it would be this way,
I guess you'll be happy without me by your side,
so I think its just better if you stay away,
and probably I'll be okay day by day,
or probably I'm gone forever in any day.

XoXo,
Nurul.