Missing Them BADLY :(

i CRIED.

ryte now, i'm missing my old friends badly.
seriously.
i havent met them for almost a year now.

shikes.
i can still remember all 46 names of 6 Tabah's students :D


lets recall! :D

Aimi
Elyna
Faris
Syammil
Aminah
Syira
Hakim
Tunku Amirul
Amir
Bharatha Rao
Pravena
Raveena
Syazwan
Afiq Adli
Nina
Farhah
Aina
Shieqa
Aliff
Muhammad
Anis
Fatin Najihah
Adha
Zainal
NURUL AKMAL :D
Zahra
Acap
Suniil
Syahirah Kamal
Ellis
Nasrin
Alia
Iwana
Puteri
Amelia
Tivya
Afiq Oslan
Harith
Azra
Fatin Amirah
Liana Nazurah
Nurul Husna
Liana Irfan
Aina Nabilah
Afiq Danis
Ahmad Nizar.


WOHOOO! Ini semua ikut kedudukan tempat duduk. kalau tk silap aa :D
see. it shows how much i miss you all!
serious memang kerinduan yang terlampau ni.

korang, mari jumpa lagi jom ?
jangan la buat aku rindu korang gila gila nak mati pnya rindu! HAHA.

dah la korang kawan terhebat yang pernah aku jumpa.
especially mereka2 yg sangat rapat dgn aku masa dulu2.
i miss the old you guys and girls.
sekarang semua dah hot2. tinggalkan aku en. *sobs*

walaupun korang dah hot2 dan aku segan nak jumpa korang,
tapi aku tetap nak meet korang jugak! no matter what! *berkeras & degil jugak ni*


hope korang still ingat aku & kawan aku lagi walaupun hanya aku sorang yang terceruk di SMK PROJEK.
sedangkan yang lain di MRSM, MCKK, SMKSSAAS, SMKS 7, SMKS 19, & SAMTTAJ.

______________________________________________________________________________


lagi org yg aku rindu, ni haaa :

- KAWAN KAWAN 6 TAUBAT SRA Seksyen 3 SHAH ALAM !!! :D
- KAWAN KAWAN TADIKA NOBLE Seksyen 8 SHAH ALAM !!!
(especially danny & yasmin lukman)
- KAWAN KAWAN TADIKA LITTLE KIDS Seksyen 9 SHAH ALAM !!!
- KAWAN KAWAN TUSYEN MAWAR CLASS 3 Seksyen 9 SHAH ALAM!!!
(sophea & syahir of course)
- KAWAN KAWAN & FASILITATOR FASILITATOR KEM INTEGRASI SMK PROJEK && SMK RAJA MAHADI !!!
(memang rindu gila kot. asal semua sombong dah ? )



XOXO. how i wish i could find them :(

FAKTA.

random post. i post this because i feel like i want to.
it doesnt mean anything.
its a fact :)




guys will always be guys.
HEARTBREAKER.
SWEETTALKER.
LIAR!

they only know on how to FOOL a girl.
they blinded the girl by saying, ILOVEYOU. IMISSYOU and what so ever craps are.
they dont really know how to appreciate a girl's feeling.
or should i say, they DONT EVEN KNOW HOW.

diorang maki2 bila perasaan diorang dipersendakan perempuan,
tpai bila diorang yg mempersendakan perasaan perempuan, diorang suka.

apa diorg ingat perempuan ini mainan?
boleh beli di toys r us?
boleh beli di toycity ?

BODOH!

dia fikir dia sahaja punya perasaan.
dia fikir dia sahaja mahu orang setia.

GUNA LAH OTAK! GUNA LAH AKAL!

mereka tak pernah fikir panjang!
mereka tak pernah serik!

p/s : wahai perempuan, bangkit. jangan selalu mengalah kepada lelaki.
bila diberi muka, makin dipijak! makin dipermainkan!
ingat, bukan lelaki sahaja yg punya kuasa, perempuan juga punya kuasa.
gunakan kuasa dan akal fikiran.


BIAR KITA YANG MENGAWAL PERASAAN.
BUKAN PERASAAN MENGAWAL KITA.

21st.

tarikh 21 ogos.
paling sakit.
sangat perit.
aku tanggung sendiri.
serius.
sakit. perit.
kalau aku tidak berhenti memikirkannya, memang aku gila.
dalam muka aku yg gembira gelak tak berhenti, sebenarnya ada perit yg menyerang aku pada masa itu.
memang hanya aku rasa betapa peritnya benda itu.
hanya aku yg lalui.
terima kasih pada si pencalar hati.

dan terima kasih pada si teman sejati, pemberi semangat.

aku jadi bingung,
selepas ini, memang tawar hati aku.
serious.


Tuhan, kuatkanlah semangat aku.
berjuang, melalui hari hari yg kau datang kan.

Hari Aku Mengalami Satu Mimpi Ngeri

yesterday.
hari sambutan kemerdekaan peringkat sekolah.

yea as some of u readers know, aku masuk CHOIR.
atas paksa dan rela.
maka aku bersiap sedia untuk choir aku.

pagi tu, sibuk handle kan perhimpunan.
thanks syirnee, shafiq, taufiq & ismad.
dan para penaik bendera :D

hm. maaf pagi itu agak kelam kabut.
apa punya biro perhimpunan lah aku nii.

maaf ayna, nurul ta handle phimpunan elok2 lately.

okay so bila dh selesai phimpunan rasmi, mula lah majlis sambutan.
pengerusi majlisnya, cikgu suraya.
mula dengan ucapan pengetua, kemudian ada sedikit selingan ucapan dari cikgu suraya,
kemudian mula persembahan.
pertama, persembahan silat oleh saudari Syafiqah Zainal & saudara Shawal.

habis silat, saudari Nurul Adira membuat persembahan solo 'Bahtera Merdeka' tanpa iringan muzik. atas masalah teknikal.
tapi dia tetap menyanyi dengan baik :D

selepas itu, persembahan CHOIR.
yeah aku. dan rakan2.
sebenarnya aku pasti ramai yg tak perasan adanya aku dalam pasukan choir tu.
hehe.
sebab penampilan aku yg sangaaat lain :P

okay then habis choir, mula lah satu mimpi ngeri.
aku menyanyi duet lagu 'Perwira' bersama si comel Shafiqah Rafi.
sudah tentu suara shafiqah hebat.
lunak, merdu.
bila aku masuk, suara macam katak.
malu aku hanya tuhan saja yang tahu.
sepatutnya aku biarkan shafiqah menyanyi seorang.
baru semua suka :)

tutup cerita tu. aku tak mahu dengar.

habis menyanyi, ada nyanyian lagu 'Tanggal 31' beramai2,
penuh semangat.
sedikit sebanyak memulihkan emosi aku.

habis saja segalanya, aku duduk di belakang pentas.
depresi.
memikirkan mimpi ngeri tadi.
andai aku dapat jumpa Athirah Khalid dan Izzaty Rafi pada ketika itu, confirm aku nangis tak berhenti :P
hehe.
sebab diorang jea selalu bersama aku bila ade mimpi ngeri berlaku pd aku.

aku ditemani saudari Shafiqah Rafi.
aku masuk bilik untuk salin baju, terserempak dengan Shafiq Sulaiman.
dia perasan muka aku pucat, muka aku penuh depresi.
dia suruh aku chill. hehe.
thank you abang ku.
then masa dalam toilet tga salin baju,
aku berborak dengan shafiqah rafi.
air mata aku mengalir. tapi tak de lah terang2.
nanti orang kata aku ni cengeng.

cikgu suraya belanja budak2 kebudayaan.
sepinggan nasi goreng dan secawan air sirap laici.
terima kasih cikgu suraya :D
mulanya aku tak terasa nak makan.
tak lalu. LANGSUNG.
tapi bila cikgu suraya suruh, aku pun makan laa.
kesian pulak dia. huhu

dah la. tu je.
malas nk update banyak2.
mimpi ngeri itu aku harap tak akan berulang.
aku taknak masuk apapa dah.
fobia.

sepanjang hari itu,
ramai yg mengusik aku.
aku jadi sedih bila ade yg menegur aku walaupun mereka kata aku nyanyi okay lah ape lah.
aku tetap rasa mimpi ngeri itu sangat ngeri.
adik2 tingkatan 1 ramai yg seolah mengejek.
ada juga beberapa orang guru yang mengatakan terkejut kerana secara tiba2 aku menyanyi.
HAHA.
nurul menyanyi ?
mimpi ngeri.
ngeri yg teramat ngeri.
lebih ngeri dari apa yg org lain alami.


p/s : aku terasa mahu meletak jawatan aku sbgai BP. aku mula jadi terok sebagai seorang BP. kerja aku pun masih perlu dibantu KP. sedangkan dia ada tugasan dia sendiri. lagipun aku rasa aku tak layak. kerja aku handle perhimpunan semua kelam kabut. patut ke aku letak jawatan ni ?

Worldstage :)

15th August 2009.

it was AWESOME! ! !


seriously.
i went to the MTV WORLDSTAGE with my friend, Meme.
we went to Sunway at 3 pm. my mum sent me there. *thnkyou fr saving my money mummy*
then we go and jalan2 in Sunway Pyramid. have some icecreams. then we went pusing2 satu sunway tu.
then i went to FOS and i bought 2 tops for rm23 :D
electric blue and purple :)

at 4.30 pm, we decided to go inside Sunway Lagoon cuz its gettin too bored in pyramid.
but, there was a very tak best punya part masa nak masuk.

the KAKAK yg jaga kat BAG CHECK tuu, poyo gila. prangai cam CIBAII. HAHA.
memang kne maki jea. seriouss :P
dia kata 'eh adek, taktau ke camera tak boleh bawak masuk?'
i was like, *WTF?* 'takkan ah tak boleh?'
then she said, 'tak boleh la. pegy letak kat locker.'
HAHA pundek je weh. baboon betul.
pastuh aku letak ah kt locker.
tapi cm cibai rmai org sludup camera letak dlm poket ah ape ah.
aku tak boleh sbb kalau ltak dlm poket pun nampak gyla. haha.
so, theres no gamba okay sepanjang this event.
only me and meme knows how awesome the event was :D

okay abes cyter kakak tuh. then masuk.
diorang bagi kipas, and yg mcm raincoat uh free. haha.

pastuh kitorg masuk laa.
mase jalan uh, i saw a friend of mine. which i know him thru myspace. HANDSOME :D
hehehe. hope hes not reading my blog. :D

then ade some performances sebelum masuk surf beach uh.,
but we didnt bother to watch.
we want to get a good spot to watch the concert. hee xD
then suddenly, hujaann.
mula2 tk lebat, then agak lebat so evrybody sits in their raincoats. haha.

then it stop raining.
pukul 5.30 mcm tuh,
hunny madu entertain us. haha.
no lah. there was a performance by a very talented and handsome singer, IQWAL. :D
maybe many of u guys doesnt know who the hell is he,
but i know who.
and i love his voice :)

then at 6,
the event started.
the host were those VJs.
Utt is super hot. :D

first band to perform was ESTRANGED.
they sang 4 songs.
first one idk whts the title,
then second is ketika ini,
third, is the song entitled JUMP maybe, the one they perform on shoutawards.
and 4th was yang pernah.
they were cool.
and for sure, i'm so in ove with the drummer, Andy.
especially his eyes. HAHA :)

then the next band was BOYS LIKE GIRLS.oh man, they were superbly GREAT!
i was screaming and shouting like hell u know.
hahaha. they performed 4 songs.
love drunk, thunder, hero/heroine & the great escape.
i love them performing thunder.
seriously, SWEET :)
and the band members are HOT :)

then there was a break for about an hour.
me and meme was trying so hard to redah all those peeps and beli air.
but mase kitorg kt situ, RAMAI gilaa org, pnjg gyla beratur,
so kitorg cm, redah balik try to get another good spot.
and we got one :D

after the break, performance by RAYGUN.they sang 3 songs i guess.
but i dont really know what songs were they.
cuz i'm not a big fan of raygun besides i'm not a fan of tht band.
but their music was kinda cool :)

next was performance by PIXIE LOTT.
lagi lah aku kurang minat.
she sang 3 songs.
okay laa.
huhu.

then another break for about an hour.
at tht tyme we bought mineral waters.
tired of screaming and shouting already.
we NEED water. haha.
lantak lah mahal pon.
meanwhile, they played some songs, people dance here and there.
not so boring :D

after the break, there were performance by HOOBASTANK!
they performed 4 songs. one of it was the reason.
when they performed The Reason, everybody were singing along.
it was fun :D

there was a short break for about 20 minutes.

and the event was continued with performance by, ALL AMERICAN REJECTS !!!!
omg my favourite band :D
i lovee them.
they sang 7 songs i guess.
some of it was, it ends tonight, i wanna, wind blows, swing swing & gives you hell.
another 2 were new songs KOT.
tktau tajuk. haha.
but,seriously,
i swear they rock the event last night!!
they were awesome, energetic, superbly freakin cool!
all of the crowds were singing along, jumping up and down, screaming and shouting.
and tht includes me too :D
besides, i scream, jump and sing all out when all american rejects performed.
especially their last song, Gives You Hell. :D
i jumped, i screamed, i shouted, i sang, i was reallyyy crazeyh.
HAHA.
eventhough i didnt took any ecstasies or wine or even anything.
just a mineral water, just a band named All American Rejects, I CAN GO CRAZYYY :D

last band to perform was KASABIAN.honestly, i dont really listen to their songs.
but, last night, they DO rock out.
they sang 6 or 7 songs too i guess.
they were reallyy awesome!
i was tired to jump after i went all out for all american rejects,
so i just bang my head, scream2, and also, i got the chance to sit for a while. HAHA
but the last few songs, i got my energy,
and i started to jump again.
oh i love the vocalist :D

the event finished at 12 am.
so i called my brother to come and pick me up.
20 minutes later, he picked me and meme up.
i said i wanna go and eat,
so suggest, Syed 11,
but then my brother suggested, lets go for shisha.
okay jom! haha :D
so we went to Barra in section 7.
waited for his friends, meanwhile meme ate maggi goreng,
i was not hungry because i had so much fun and i didnt bother to eat.
besides its late night so i dont really have the mood to eat.
i just ordered Limau Ais, and ais kosong.
thirstyy gilaaa :)
then borak2 and all,
at 2 am, we sent meme home, and we went home :D

it was sooo much fun last night.
me and meme met new moshing friends. haha.
they're from kajang.
and they rocks! seriously. :D
mosh macam ape jeh wehh. hahha.

besides, i got to cuci mata.
ramai mamat hot :D
and i met some of my long lost friends, myspacers, others :D

seriously, LAST NIGHT WAS A BLAST!
a memory which i WONT forget :)

Post Khas Untuk Orang Bernama Nabilah Azhar :D

haha. anda memang cousin terhebat.
terima kasihh :)

and terima kasih jugak banyak buat post melibatkan nama kite kt blog awak.
HAHA.

btw, kita tetap taylor lautner punya.
and awak amek lah robert pattinson awak tuh jauh2.
tak hensem pun. haha :))

Si Baju Melayu :))

HAHA taktau nak post pasal apa dah. sehari ni rasa nak blogging je.
bagi mereka yg tak suka pelakon atau artis melayu, atau mungkin rasa meluat nak baca, go away. :)
*ceh mcm rmai sgt je nk bce*

okay sekarang nak cerita. haha.

u know whaaatt, saya teramat sukaa tengok lelaki pakai baju melayu.
seriously. haha.
terutamanya mereka yang kachak2 dan comel2. hahha.
kalau full set dengan songkok and sampin, lagiiii saya suka! ahaha.

kachak wohh. sangat sangat sangat.

tak sabar woh nak raya, sebab boleh tengok abang2 atau mamat2 hot yang berbaju melayu. woot woot. :))
especially kalau raya kat singapore, memangg aku sukaa. sebab mamat2 kat sana selalu kalau naik train nak pergi beraya pun, pakai baju melayu. wohooo. hot hot heat :D

HAHA excited pulak cerita ni.
saya memang akan cair lah kalau ada mamat comel yang kachak bergaya dengan baju melayu nya berjalan melintasi saya. dengan senyuman. wahahaha !

saya mula berimaginasi dah nii :D

memang saya sangat suka lah kalau laki pakai baju melayu.
walau buruk mana pun rupa dia, tapi dia akan tetap nampak segak oh pakai baju melayu.
memang masa raya paling best. serious.

jadi wahai lelaki2 yang ingin mencairkan hati saya, pakai lah baju melayu selalu yea. HAHAHAHHAA. :))

sini saya selitkan beberapa gambar lelaki2 berbaju melayu yang tak berapa nak kachak laa. HAHA




gambar 1 : Dafi & Adik Dia. Kachak wey adek dia. sebab pakai baju melayu. AHAHAHA. (credits to sensasiselebriti.com)

gambar 2 : David Archuleta memakai baju melayu hijau apple. AWW FAVOURITE SAYAA! Archie, sudikah awak jadi BF sayaa ? HAHA. kachak yea mamat ni pakai baju melayu :)

gambar 3 : Fahrin Ahmad. bergaya woo :D

gambar 4 : Anuar Zain. kurang jelas. haha. sorry. (credits to lensalily)

gambar 5 : Zoey. aww comel nyaa! haha. dengan muka jambu, dengan baju melayu biru cair, dengan songkok dan sampin, wohhh.. hati aku yg cair! hahaha :))

gambar 6 : Aliff Aziz. oh ini satu lagi yg memang bikin cair hati saya. haha. tak kisah apa rupa dia, tetap aku sukaa. walaupun tak bersongkok. tapi okay laa :D

gambar 7 : Zahiril Adzim. HAHA wajib ada okey muka dia. seboleh boleh aku cari juga muka dia pakai baju melayu. kachak doe! *melting* HAHA. :))

gambar 8 : Syamsul Hirdi. boleh kata kacak juga berbaju melayu. muka comel. ahaha. tpi baju melayu tetap membuatkan dia bergayaa :D

the conclusion is, Lelaki Berbaju Melayu memang HOT :D
jadi kepada abang2 atau lelaki2 yang kachak memakai baju melayu, cepat2 isi borang. HAHAHAHAHHA.
masa mengisi borang akan ditutup selepas 2 minit setengah anda habis membaca entry ini. HAHA.
mula merepek dah akuu.
sudah sudah. hentikan.
BYEBYE :)

p/s : Lelaki Berbaju Melayu, Saya Telah Jatuh Hati Pada Awak :)

Describing People Around Me :)

just wanna talk about some people who i think really cares for me :)

firstly of course my parents and sibs.
they're totally awesome. thanks fr bein a very big help for me.
eventhough we always fight on small things, still, my love fr u all wont fade away :)
Lokman Hj Abdullah. Norleza Hj Abdul Manan. Mohd Afi. Mohd Adie. Muhammad Aiman. Muhammad Adlan. Nurul Aqilah.


secondly, my seniors.
Athirah. the one who will always willing to lend me an ear to listen all of my problems. the one who always cares for whatever i do. laugh, cry, talk, eat, all together :)
Izzaty. bestfriends with athirah. both caring. understanding. always been my soul rescue. hehe. i love them so much. i wonder what will it be without them next year at school. -.-

thirdly is my so-called abg, Shamsul Nazrin.
i prefer to call him abg bungek. hee xD
the one who will always make me laugh, a place to share problems, he's cool, and i guess i get along with him very well :)
aww he's far away. its hard to meet him nowadays. i miss him so much mann!

next, my cousin, Nabilah Azhar.
not really cousin actually. hehe.
but still. shes the one who will always listened to my problems, sing along with me when i need to sing. haha. who will cry with me on certain situations.
aww only Allah knows how much i love her. shes always the best :)
*dia selalu sama taste dengan saya oke*
cuma sy agak cerewet. tapi bab lelaki, memang kitorg suka. HAHAHA.
i mean, actor okeh. kami addict dengan Twilight & New Moon :)

fifth, my friends.
bestfriends actually.
no, superrawking bestfriends.
Azfar, he's always been the one who listened to my problems, hes kinda like my adek. eventhough sumtymes i get pissed off with his attitude :P
Nani, the one who will always be the one to laugh with, share secrets with :)
thnks fr brighten up my day :D
Meme, Wan & Jipa, the one who always makes me laugh, makes me feel i'm grateful tht i hav friends like them :)

next, my other bestfriends.
Icca, the tall girl who will always listened to my babbling. haha.
Nena, the happy go lucky girl who always cares for her friends.

seventh, my classmates.
they make me laugh everyday with their various types of attitudes. haha. eventhough it can win the class with loads and stacks of discipline problems award, u guys still rock my life :)


seventh, i guess thats all for now. if any other people around me who i forgot to describe, i will update it later. :)

Aku Yang Skema.

maaf. post kali ini boleh dikatakan melankolik jiwa atau pathetic atau POYO jugak.
so kalau rasa takmau baca, boleh tekan pangkah secepat mungkin. atau boleh berambus dari sini.
bagi yg mahu meneruskan pembacaan, SILAKAN.

kebelakangan ini baru aku sedar, sendiri.
aku ini terlalu SKEMA. terlalu mengikut.

tak perlu contoh besar besar.
contoh kecil seperti di sekolah sudah memadai.

aku punya teman teman rapat seperti Nani, Azfar, Meme & Wan & tak lupa Jipa.

kadang2 aku rasa aku tersangatlah bodoh dan skema di antara mereka.
atas beberapa sebab yg buat aku rasa begitu.

pertama, apabila belajar, hanya aku yang akan senyap dan bikin kerja sendiri. bukan bangga atau apa, cuma, aku rasa macam, eh skema sungguh aku buat kerja, sedangkan mereka borak2, buat kerja pun tanpa tensi, bergelak ketawa.
terutamanya waktu maths yg diajar puan M.
aku rasa sangatlah mengikut. kadang2 aku rasa macam aku ni ketinggalan. dan kadang2 aku rasa bersalah sebab tinggalkan kawan aku macam tu.

kedua, apabila orang lain sibuk berborak mengetengahkan pelbagai isu, aku masih sibuk menyiapkan kerja rumah yang tidak beres pada minit terakhir.
sedangkan mereka hanya mengamalkan cara, apa nak jadi, jadi lah. alah kurang kurang pon kena cubit je ke ape je ke.
*betol gak en*
entah asal aku ni skema dan mengikut sangat untuk siapkan homework itu.

ketiga, bila orang lain sibuk happy2. aku pegi keluar, cari benda untuk dibuat.
merayau, cari cikgu mana2 untuk ditolong atau mungkin cari cikgu mai untuk bergosip. HAHA. itu kadang2 jea okay. tak selalu.

keempat, bila aku suka marah orang yang bising atau bertanyakan soalan2 bodoh pada cikgu yg sedang mengajar. orang lain tak ada sibuk2 nak marah atau tegur orang yg bising itu. tapi aku, over plak.
tapi kawan aku pun boleh tahan bodoh. aku tegur sikit, nak touching.
wtf lah wey.
HAHA. terkeluar sedikit carutan dari mulut si skema ni.



dan sebab2 lain belum dapat disenaraikan.

tapi memang serius. teman2 akan anggap aku ini SKEMA. POYO. KONON BAIK.
atau dalam istilah budak sekarang, TAK COOL. TAK ROCK.
HAHA.

tapi kadang2, aku macam rasa sakit hati pun ada.
aku bukan lah apa, aku tegur kawan2 aku sbb aku pun nak diorang sama sama berjaya nanti. ceyh skema tak tahan betul. HAHA.
seriously, aku nak gak kawan aku semua idup senang2 nanti :)

aku sakit hati sebab diorang akan buat aku rasa aku ni bodoh pegi tinggalkan kawan kawan aku untuk buat kerja yg entah apa. HAHA.

dan aku jadi PISSED OFF bila salah seorang teman rapat aku yang bermulut lancang akan menembak aku semula atau membuat muka cibainya apabila aku tegur dia suruh senyap atau stop bein annoying. HAHA. itu menunjukkan aku dah mula sakit hati dan tak suka perangai dia.

okay whatever. aku rasa aku dah luahkan apa yang aku nak.
dah la tuh kan ?
banyak2 pun bukan ada siapa nak baca. HAHA.

Sekian,
SI SKEMA :))

Post Bergambar II :)

second part. dari 1 folder yg lain. :)
same jugak, arranged RANDOMNLY :)

Post Bergambar I :)

idk why, today i feel like i want to upload some of my favourite pictures :)
so, do hav a look. :))
it is arranged RANDOMLY :)
ini dari 1 folder lame :)