Sharihan Luqman,
the first time I knew you,
there's something that urged me to get to know you better,
I didn't hesitate when you told me that you wanted to know me,
as you know, I thought you were a rempit who randomly wanted to know a girl.
we weren't close at first, but when we started being closer,
something said to me that it was a start.
for me, for you, and for us.
I thought it was just a start of a real precious friendship, but I was wrong.
it was actually a start for us to get attached to each other, to fall for each other.
days by days, we kept in touch, who knows, I was silently falling for you.
I thought it was a typical crush that wouldn't last long but again, I was wrong.
days passed by, we started to sense that we have feelings for each other but neither one of us would dare to confess.
when you had the guts to confess, I blew it off. I blew my own chance to have what I want.
then there, it started to be different.
things weren't same. I thought I could get rid of those feelings but again and again, I was wrong.
the feelings is still there, still strong eventho time passed by.
months and months we continued being friends, till one fine day, I was heartbroken.
something happened and that was a total blow off.
I tried doing every single thing just to forget you, forget the heartbreak, forget everything.
it was hard. I went through few nights with tears and few days with sobs.
but from day to day, I got better. I managed to get over.
and I convinced myself that I'm in love with you no more.
however, the day you lend your ears to my problems, I felt different.
that was when I realized that the feeling is still there.
we did went through ups and downs of a friendship.
until the day I got to call you mine.
it was another step. a big step.
sort of another start of a new thing. it was the first awkward thing that I actually like.
everything seems to be different in a good way.
everything seems to be wonderful and amazing.
from that day, till the moment I'm typing this, everyday is still different in a good way, wonderful, and amazing.
your plenty pros have completed my plenty cons and your little cons have completed my little pros.
how can I stop falling for you?
no wonder I was urged to knew you.
to feel happy, to feel like the most important person in the world :)
I don't want to let jealousy or "no-trust" destroy this wonderful love of ours.
I don't want to let anyone else intrudes this amazing relationship of ours.
do remember, 3 things, :
I LOVE YOU.
I ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
I FOREVER WILL LOVE YOU.
you're always at the top of my priority, in line with my family and friends.
sayang, would you hold my heart at all times and promise to be the only one who makes me feel like a princess cause it seems that I just cant find anyone else who fits into this world of mine.
Dear Sharihan Luqman b Shahiruddin, we wouldn't know whats gonna happen next but I hope this relationship would last long. Amin.
