:')

I was the one who made that decision.
I know I don't want to, but I guess its what I've to do.
I need to stop hurting you over and over again.

Each and every second with you has meant a lot to me.
You've been such a great sidekick.
It was a relationship to remember.

Thank you so much for being there,
Thank you so much for your care,
Thank you so much for the love you gave.
Thank you so much for each second of your precious life that I've wasted.
Thank you so much for every single thing.

I am sorry for my flaws.
For not being able to be the greatest girlfriend ever.
For not being the perfect girlfriend you dream of.
For everything I'm not, I am really truly deeply sorry.

But I can't resist myself from seeing you in my future.
Who knows. This is another chapter of our love life that might be cherished in our future.

From all the things we've been through,
You taught me to be a better person.
You taught me to believe in miracles.
You taught me to believe in myself.

Sharihan Luqman, you're still the very best I've ever had :')


2:57am, 21122012.

Favourite Boy :)

I don't mind looking silly in front of you. I can even act silliest in front of you.

I'm comfortable with you. What else can I say.

You always knew how to handle me at my lowest and at my highest.

A zillion thank you for the care, for being there.

You're like my very own version of Care Bear :)

My favourite picture of my favourite boy.

He's my precious little baby, the one that makes me crazy,

Of all the boys I've ever known,

It's you, it's you :)

I've once said that if anyone asked who is my favourite boy, I'll say Sharihan Luqman.

Guess what? If anyone asks me the same question, the answer is still the same.

Love you Little Fat Panda.

2:34aam, 20122012

Its 4th October again! :)

Assalamualaikum and hello dear readers.

Guess what? Its 4th October again! :)

As usual, a very wajib post on 4th October is...... a birthday post ! :)

*tarik nafas dalam dalam*

Happy Birthday To You...

Happy Birthday To You...

Happy Birthday To Aina Jasmeen...

Happy Birthday To Youuuuuuuuu :)

*pheww*

Happy 19th Birthday Aina Jasmeen! :)

May Allah SWT bless you always,

Semoga panjang umur and murah rezeki :)

May success and happiness accompanies you throughout your journey of life :)

and may all your wishes come true.

Semoga awak sentiasa sihat, dan bahagia di samping orang orang tersayang.

Syaa rindukan awak sangat sangat.

This is the 2nd birthday of yours yang kita tak dapat celebrate sama sama :(

I am really hoping to see you one day and celebrate it with you and Shasha since we're all October babies.

I know you would read this sister.

I miss you so much :')

No matter how long has it been, I'm still here, praying for all the good things for your life.

Hope someday we'll get to meet and hopefully things between us still remain crazy like we used to be. haha!

Sorry I had to curi your picture from facebook since we dah lama takda gambar sama sama :(

Hopefully you're happy to receive this. I thought of gettting something for your birthday, tapiiiii mmg nanti saya simpan je la kan. hahah. InsyaAllah, someday, I'll get to give you lots of birthday presents! hehehe

So again, Happy 19th Birthday Miss Aina Jasmeen. I love you so much! Do take a very good care of yourself. Remember, no matter how long or how far we've been apart, I'm still here for you. Ceh macam orang bercinta. hahah but true. your nuoi is still here. and I bet your thafiq is still here tooo :)

Okay I guess that's all for this post. I really wish we could meet so that lagi banyak benda I can talk to you.

Take care. Happy Birthdaaaayyy! I Love You So Much SISTER ! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Its All About Us :)

Sharihan Luqman,
the first time I knew you,
there's something that urged me to get to know you better,
I didn't hesitate when you told me that you wanted to know me,
as you know, I thought you were a rempit who randomly wanted to know a girl.
we weren't close  at first, but when we started being closer,
something said to me that it was a start.
for me, for you, and for us.
I thought it was just a start of a real precious friendship, but I was wrong.
it was actually a start for us to get attached to each other, to fall for each other.
days by days, we kept in touch, who knows, I was silently falling for you.
I thought it was a typical crush that wouldn't last long but again, I was wrong.
days passed by, we started to sense that we have feelings for each other but neither one of us would dare to confess.
when you had the guts to confess, I blew it off. I blew my own chance to have what I want.
then there, it started to be different.
things weren't same. I thought I could get rid of those feelings but again and again, I was wrong.
the feelings is still there, still strong eventho time passed by.
months and months we continued being friends, till one fine day, I was heartbroken.
something happened and that was a total blow off.
I tried doing every single thing just to forget you, forget the heartbreak, forget everything.
it was hard. I went through few nights with tears and few days with sobs.
but from day to day, I got better. I managed to get over.
and I convinced myself that I'm in love with you no more.
however, the day you lend your ears to my problems, I felt different.
that was when I realized that the feeling is still there.
we did went through ups and downs of a friendship.
until the day I got to call you mine.
it was another step. a big step.
sort of another start of a new thing. it was the first awkward thing that I actually like.
everything seems to be different in a good way.
everything seems to be wonderful and amazing.
from that day, till the moment I'm typing this, everyday is still different in a good way, wonderful, and amazing.
your plenty pros have completed my plenty cons and your little cons have completed my little pros.
how can I stop falling for you?
no wonder I was urged to knew you.
to feel happy, to feel like the most important person in the world :)
I don't want to let jealousy or "no-trust" destroy this wonderful love of ours.
I don't want to let anyone else intrudes this amazing relationship of ours.
do remember, 3 things, :
I LOVE YOU.
I ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
I FOREVER WILL LOVE YOU.
you're always at the top of my priority, in line with my family and friends.

sayang, would you hold my heart at all times and promise to be the only one who makes me feel like a princess  cause it seems that I just cant find anyone else who fits into this world of mine.

Dear Sharihan Luqman b Shahiruddin, we wouldn't know whats gonna happen next but I hope this relationship would last long. Amin.

Happy Birthday, Azfar :)

This is Azfar.
He was born on 9th August 1995.
Years later, we became bestfriends.
Till the day he accepted and offer to go to another school which is TIKL.
We rarely talk to each other nowadays. Haha faktor sekolah lain tu kot yang membuatkan rasa mcm awkward dan takda masa nak jumpa and lepak sama sama like dulu dulu.

Today, 9th August 2012.
He's officially 17! :)

So, Happy Birthday Azfar!

May Allah bless you always.

May all the good things comes your way.

Hopefully you'll have a great 17.

Goodluck in whatever you do....

Goodluck for SPM! :)

May all your dreams come true,

Take a very good care of yourself, :)
Happy Birthday Againnnnn! :)

Result Midterm :)

Assalamualaikum and hello readers :)
Well, dah makin berhabuk blog ni sebenarnya.
I'm just too lazy to update, and I got no time :(
Senior year is just so......hectic.
As usual, whenever I got my results, I'll post about it.
So, my midterm was just fine.
And here's my results.....

Alhamdulillah, no fail.
I just need to work more on the Es and Cs.
As for the Bs and As, I'm quite satisfied.
Haih kerajaan.. why la you menyusahkan us people by having this + - thingy...

However, I'm very grateful that I finally see an improvement in my result. Hiwhiw
No fail weh no fail! cukup membanggakan dah tu. hikhik

Okay thats all. Will be updating whenever I feel like I want to.

Assalamualaikum :)

Sekian lama tangan tak menaip.

Assalamualaikum and hello readers :)
Well, its been awhile since I last updated this blog.
So, life has been well for me.
Cuti?
Hmm macam biasa.
Went out few times, went to JB for a funeral and went to Perak.
Well, I like living in Perak. Eventho I got no friends there but still, I feel calm when I'm there
SO probably the second week I'll be working. InsyaAllah. I miss the kids so much. :(
Thats all for the time being.  BYeeE :)

Dalam hati.

Tersilap langkah, tersalah percaturan.

Tapi mungkin bermulanya satu langkah baru? 

Atau mungkin titik mulanya satu percaturan yang akan betul?

Siapa tahu. 

Usaha. Tawakal. Redha.

Kalau ada, ada lah.

Kalau takda, teruskan hidup macam ni.

Corakkan perubahan hidup sendiri.

Tiada lagi cerita cinta.

Tiada lagi dongeng bahagia.

Tiada lagi mimpi sempurna.

Tinggal derita yang akan pergi.

Tinggal sisa gembira yang akan reput.

Tinggal janji yang hilang dengan mimpi.

Tapi, dia itu, masih berdiri di sini. Jauh dalam ini.

Cant Stand It.

Obviously this picture was edited. hihi.

K anyways, I just miss this so much. I dont know why tonight, I cant stand it.
I just had to tell to you, my dearest bloggie.
I knw its some sort of stupid printscreen but this is one of the printscreens that I've been keeping.
Ahhh I miss this sort of thing so much. :'(

Result March Test

Alhamdulillah. This is what I got for my March test.
Gonna work extra for midterm :)
InsyaAllah I could. I believe in myself :)

A birthday post for 22nd March baby :)

Its 22nd of MARCH !
Someone was born on this date last 17 years.

She is.................

My precious soulmate, Nurul Nazifa bt Hajri ! :)

She was the cute little princess born on 22nd March 1995.

And 17 years later, she's this gorgeous princess that turns out to be my precious soulmate.

Since its your birthday, I'd like to wish,

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JIPA !

May Allah bless you always.

May success and happiness accompanies you throughout your journey of life.

May all your dreams come true :)

You've been through 17 years journey of life.

Hopefully you'll get through another decades of life with lots of patience and joy.

Have a great seventeen Jipa.

Love you a lots lots lots lots ! *hugs and kisses*

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Enjoy ! :)

Tercabar tapi berpenyakit.

Hey its been awhile since I last updated my blog.
So today, 21st March 2012, batch 94s seluruh Malaysia ambil result SPM.

Well, tadi pukul 1045, aku pun pergi la rehat and sibuk2 tengok budak SPM punya result.
Orang orang yang agak rapat dengan aku, dapat result yang not bad.
Most of them semua lulus.

And bila tengok slip diorang semua tu, buat aku rasa tercabar.
Ada 2 orang yang dapat straight As.
Lain, ada la 7, 6, 5 dan sebagainya.
But still, aku rasa tercabar.

Masalahnya sekarang, aku ni keras hati.
tercabar tercabar pun, penyakit malas tu datang juga. acano?

Dan sekarang aku rasa aku kena cabar diri aku sendiri untuk lawan penyakit ni.
InsyaAllah aku kuat.
Kalau aku tak lawan sakit ni, aku dah nampak dah aku akan end up macam mana masa ambil result SPM tahun depan.

K bye assalamualaikum :)

3rd March 2012 :)

Well hello readers :)

Its been quite awhile since I last updated my blog.

So yesterday was the 3rd of March.

I went out with my soulmate, Nur Farisya :) 

Since she has a date with Hafiz, so I decided to bring Muhaimin to accompany me.

No we didnt date. I called it as a lepak k. -.-

So we went for a movie which is This Means War. 

I've been wanting to watch the movie since I watched the trailer. So, I got to watch it ! yeay!

It was a great movie. 9 out of 10 ! :)

Syaa and Hafiz were so sweet in the movie. K iJealous.

Me and Min were laughing like mad watching This Means War. hihi. 

K after the movie, we separated our ways. 

I didnt even know where was Syaa and Hafiz going. 

Me and Min were like.. taktahu nak pergi mana. but since Min wanted to smoke, so we went out.

We took a stroll around the park. dalam gerimis. sebab dah takda kerja. wait not once. twice. haha!

Terserempak lagi dengan lovebirds dua orang tu but buat taknampak. But still, iJealous. hahaha!

So then at Maghrib we went in, at 8, we parted our ways homee.

It was a great day.

I got to meet Muhaimin. I got to see my soulmate happy,  and I was happy too :)

Happy 21st Birthday Aliff Aziz ♥

On 16th February 1991, a prince was borned. 

He grew up as a good looking guy with a great talent, and has been such an adorable guy who could drive a girl like me, crazy. =)

Its Aliff Aziz! :)

So,

Happy Birthday Aliff Aziz!

May Allah bless you always and may all your dreams come true.

I know you've been dealing with few controversial statements lately, but, let it be.

You know all your AliffAngels will always stand by you.

Keep your heads up high and keep striving towards success in your career.

Hopefully you'll have an awesome 21 ! ♥

Much love, 

Nurul ♥

p/s ; I know this is a syok sendiri post yang Aliff wont even read. haha! k whatever. I just love this guy soo much and I did this post for fun ! :)

Happy Birthday ! :)

Its 8th of Februaryyy! 

Therefore, Happy Birthday Ema !! :)

May Allah bless you always. 

Semoga panjang umur and murah rezekiiii.

dengar cerita dah kerja tapi sikit pun taknak bagitau. fine Ema fine :P

Btw, may all your dreams come true.

And hopefully you'll have a great and wonderful life with your loved ones.

Love you Ema! ♥

A friend, a cousin and a secretkeeper :)

I am one lucky girl to have so many friends.
But I'm extra lucky to have a friend who is also my cousin and came with extra package which is a secretkeeper :)

This is the one. Who made me feel extra lucky.

Nabilah Azhar :)

She's 17 today! 

So this post is basically a special birthday post for her ! :)

So, Happy Birthday To You,

Happy Birthday To You,

Happy Birthday To Ila,

Happy Birthday To You :)

Allah selamatkan kamu,

Allah selamatkan kamu,

Allah selamatkan Nabilah Azhar, 

Allah selamatkan kamu :)

Dear Ila, Happy 17th Birthday !

May Allah bless you always.

Semoga panjang umur and murah rezeki.

And may happiness and success accompanies you all the time.

Moga moga cepat awak ambik lesen and boleh bawak kita jalan jalan :D

Oh and not forgetting, moga relationship awak and Qayyum last long hingga kawin :D

Btw, thanks for being such a great cousin, a great friend and also a loyal secretkeeper.

Sayaaaaaaaaaang Ila ! :)

Happy Birthday again! ♥ ♥

The kids that I miss so much :(

So as I promised, to upload the pictures of the kids :)

They are the ones who made me smile and the ones who made me enjoy my working days. :)

 

So, our days will start with circle time. Its supposed to be a circle but knowing kids, mana reti duduk diam lama lama. And when nak suruh semua duduk, I'll just say, "Okay everyone, on the carpet :D" 

And they'll run to the carpet. Good kids :)

Now lets start. This is Zayden. He's a Malay. He's 3 years old this year.

A very intelligent kid. He always listen to the teachers. And bila dia cakap, people can faham which is very good. Oh and he speaks fluent English :)

This is the time to belajar actually. Do activities like colouring and stuffs. Masa ni buat tiger. And they started to fight the tigers sampai patah lidi kaki tu and tercabut ekor dia -.-

This is.. Kanyshai. Or prefer to be called as Kana. 3 years old this year.

She's cute. She cant really speak English cause she's a Russian. But she understands English.

And communicating with her? not really hard. we use simple sign language :P

This is Khaleefa ! :)

Dia suka senyum. And dia pandai :)

He's only 3 years old this year.

The BFF ! :)

Left is Song Been, right is Wonho.

They're 5 this year. And they're BFF. 

They often get scolded when they speak to each other in Korean. Whenever they speak Korean, the teachers will say, "Speak in English please, no korean."

And they'll imitate the teachers. HAHA

They're very intelligent but also naughty.

Orang paling susah sekali nak tidur, ha ni dua orang lah. We call them the 3 musketeers including Eggi.

One of my favourite boy. His name is Khaleef :)

He's very comel. Very talkative eventhough cakap pelat pelat. 

Pelat tu la yang buat dia lagii comel. 

At first dia ni sangat la takut dengan orang baru like me.

but lama lama, sangatlah manja. Start 2nd week, tidur semua mesti nak teacher nurul tidurkan. Ceh bangga kejapp :P

Then pagi datang menangis, teacher nurul jugak tolong pujuk. =P

Meet Mikhail. Or better known as Mika. He's very cute. He's 3 this year.

He doesnt talk much. But still, he's a good kid :)

And I'm sure, his parents raised him with high patience. Not because his naughty. He's just a lil bit different, Thats all :)

This is Siow Loo. She's 5 this year. The only girl that loves learning very much. And she's quite matured I think? She thinks like a big girl :)

K people, start wondering kenapa gambar budak ni banyak. This is Songho ! or prefer to be called as Eggi which means baby/brother in Korean. hihi.

This kid is very cheeky. very talkative eventhough pelat.

Sometimes I'm confused whether he speaks in English or Korean sebab dua dua susah nak faham =D

He's 3 this year. 

Budak ni, the first day I masuk kerja je, dah mengendeng mengada manja. Sampai kena marah dengan my aunty sebab mengada sangat sangat sangat. Semua nak berdukung, berpimpin. 

He's such a sweetheart :)

 Yang baju pink tu Yeon Jae. Korean. Suka sangat dressup :D

Napping time. They're napping time is between 1pm till 4pm. And semua orang tau, kalau dah pukul 1 memang wajib tidur. And this is also the time for me to rest. Tidurkan the kids, dengan I sekali tidur :D

And alhamdulillah, there was no problem at all at getting them to sleep. Even tidur pun, diorang tak menangis or whatever. Tahu2 bangun je, dah pukul 4, then take them for a bath, siap2 kan diorang untuk balik.

The adorable faces that I reallyyy miss :'(

I dont have any pictures of Bo Ryeong , Ye Jin, Adam and Jack :(

Hmm so thats all. I really miss the kids. I really miss waking up at 6 to get ready for work. 7 off to work, breakfast, 8 masuk nursery, kemas2 sapu lap meja mop sikit, then wait for the kids to come starting from 8.30. and melayan lah sampaiii 6.30pm. I reallllyyy miss working ! grr. Taking care of kids are really fun and entertaining. They always make me laugh with their attitude. Sumpah lepas SPM or any cuti nak kerja balik. Suka rela pun takpa. Haha. I just love kids so much! :)

Thats all people. Bye Assalamualaikum :)

14th January, amazing babies were borned :)

Its 14th January! :)
And I would like to make a birthday post today.
Its for 3 amazing babies of 14th January that made me smile :)

 But first and foremost, I want to apologise cause ambik gambar korang without permission. And I'd also like to apologise that its just a simple wish without present. Tahun depan boleh la claim birthday present :P

So lets start.

Firstly, si cantik manis Fazlyana Mukhtar :)

Dia seorang kawan yang bermula dengan lawan. kot? okay maybe tak la lawan sangat. sebab i dont see us as lawan punn.

We've been friends for almost 2 years now.

She's from Sabah :D

She's friendly. Thats how she made me smile :)

So Faz, Happy Birthday! May Allah bless you always. Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki.

And may happiness and success accompanies you all the time.

Stay comel forever. And may we be friends forevahh ♥

Next, Shamsul Nazrin Shamsudin.

This is my 'abang angkat'

Well he is very busy nowadays and we haven't met for quite a time. 

But, still, we contact each other.

He has done so many things that really made me smile. 

I miss spending time with this bungek. haha

For Abang Bungek, Happy 21st Birthday! :)

Dah 21 dah. lagi 4 tahun boleh kawinnn. yeayyy!

May Allah bless you always, semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki :)

and semoga sentiasa happy and sihat selaluuuu. and semoga awak tak lupa adik awak yang kepala bengkak kat sini ni ha. hahaha!

Love you lotss Nazrin! ♥

Nampak abang handsome ni?

This is Naim Humphrey!  :) 

Siapa taktau dia, sila pergi follow dia on Twitter now. I said NOW ! :D

I knew him from Twitter. His tweets are interesting. And he's very friendly that he follows back eventho dia tweetfamous. ngeh ngeh :D

He has made me smile just by his tweets. Kadang kadang baca tweets dia boleh gelak sorang sorang. And kadang2 dia reply my mention, happy tau. hahahaha!

So for NaimComel, Happy Birthday Hottieee! 

May Allah bless you always. May success and happiness be the best partner of yours throughout your life.

And semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki.

Stay famous and humble Mr NaimComel ♥

Thats all people. Byeee :)

I really miss them :(

Well, if you readers remember, cuti sekolah haritu aku bekerja. About 3 weeks.
And I did took pictures of the kids. And guess what, baru harini jumpa! and sempat nak transfer masuk. hihi :D
Bila tengok gambar gambar diorang, made me miss them a lot! Well, 3 weeks maybe kejap. but for me, its long enough to make me love them. And their acceptance towards me, made me really miss them.
Haha orang dah suka budak, memang mcm ni la kan gaya nya.
 Well there are about 10 - 12 kids per day. Actually its not a kindergarten. Its a nursery. I took care of kids aged 2-4 years old :)
It wasnt really hard actually. Eventhough diorang budak budak yang kadang kadang tak faham apa kita cakap, especially when there are Korean kids and apa entah yg berbilang bangsa tu. It really made me happy to take care of those kids. Baru merasa macam mana susahnya parents nak jaga budak budak kecik yang nakal, banyak perangai, tak berapa faham.
And 1 of the most important part is, I took care of 1 down syndrome kid, and another 1 to mcm autisme if I was not mistaken.
Seeing them, and everyday their parents hantar to the nursery, I wonder, how does it feels to have a child like that.
K dah macam ibu ibu la pulak post niii. hahaha! I'm gonna upload the kids' pictures in another entry. Post nii dah panjang sangat.

I really miss them a lot.
Khaleef, Songho, Song Been, Wonho, Siow Loo, Zayden, Mika, Khaleefa, Adam, Jack, Bo Ryeong, Yeon Jae, Ye Jin, Kana :')

You're able to make me smile the whole day and filled up my days with laughter.

And now you're able to make me fall for you.

How amazing it is, to realize that I really fall for you.

On the other hand, I'm just too scared if you're not feeling the same way, and I'm too scared to lose you.

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A very short post. because i'm too lazy nowadays.

Happy 2012 may Allah bless this year, may we have another wonderful year :)

and selamat bersekolah.

well i'm really lazy to update my blog. hihi.