:')

I was the one who made that decision.
I know I don't want to, but I guess its what I've to do.
I need to stop hurting you over and over again.

Each and every second with you has meant a lot to me.
You've been such a great sidekick.
It was a relationship to remember.

Thank you so much for being there,
Thank you so much for your care,
Thank you so much for the love you gave.
Thank you so much for each second of your precious life that I've wasted.
Thank you so much for every single thing.

I am sorry for my flaws.
For not being able to be the greatest girlfriend ever.
For not being the perfect girlfriend you dream of.
For everything I'm not, I am really truly deeply sorry.

But I can't resist myself from seeing you in my future.
Who knows. This is another chapter of our love life that might be cherished in our future.

From all the things we've been through,
You taught me to be a better person.
You taught me to believe in miracles.
You taught me to believe in myself.

Sharihan Luqman, you're still the very best I've ever had :')


2:57am, 21122012.

Favourite Boy :)

I don't mind looking silly in front of you. I can even act silliest in front of you.

I'm comfortable with you. What else can I say.

You always knew how to handle me at my lowest and at my highest.

A zillion thank you for the care, for being there.

You're like my very own version of Care Bear :)

My favourite picture of my favourite boy.

He's my precious little baby, the one that makes me crazy,

Of all the boys I've ever known,

It's you, it's you :)

I've once said that if anyone asked who is my favourite boy, I'll say Sharihan Luqman.

Guess what? If anyone asks me the same question, the answer is still the same.

Love you Little Fat Panda.

2:34aam, 20122012

Its 4th October again! :)

Assalamualaikum and hello dear readers.

Guess what? Its 4th October again! :)

As usual, a very wajib post on 4th October is...... a birthday post ! :)

*tarik nafas dalam dalam*

Happy Birthday To You...

Happy Birthday To You...

Happy Birthday To Aina Jasmeen...

Happy Birthday To Youuuuuuuuu :)

*pheww*

Happy 19th Birthday Aina Jasmeen! :)

May Allah SWT bless you always,

Semoga panjang umur and murah rezeki :)

May success and happiness accompanies you throughout your journey of life :)

and may all your wishes come true.

Semoga awak sentiasa sihat, dan bahagia di samping orang orang tersayang.

Syaa rindukan awak sangat sangat.

This is the 2nd birthday of yours yang kita tak dapat celebrate sama sama :(

I am really hoping to see you one day and celebrate it with you and Shasha since we're all October babies.

I know you would read this sister.

I miss you so much :')

No matter how long has it been, I'm still here, praying for all the good things for your life.

Hope someday we'll get to meet and hopefully things between us still remain crazy like we used to be. haha!

Sorry I had to curi your picture from facebook since we dah lama takda gambar sama sama :(

Hopefully you're happy to receive this. I thought of gettting something for your birthday, tapiiiii mmg nanti saya simpan je la kan. hahah. InsyaAllah, someday, I'll get to give you lots of birthday presents! hehehe

So again, Happy 19th Birthday Miss Aina Jasmeen. I love you so much! Do take a very good care of yourself. Remember, no matter how long or how far we've been apart, I'm still here for you. Ceh macam orang bercinta. hahah but true. your nuoi is still here. and I bet your thafiq is still here tooo :)

Okay I guess that's all for this post. I really wish we could meet so that lagi banyak benda I can talk to you.

Take care. Happy Birthdaaaayyy! I Love You So Much SISTER ! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Its All About Us :)

Sharihan Luqman,
the first time I knew you,
there's something that urged me to get to know you better,
I didn't hesitate when you told me that you wanted to know me,
as you know, I thought you were a rempit who randomly wanted to know a girl.
we weren't close  at first, but when we started being closer,
something said to me that it was a start.
for me, for you, and for us.
I thought it was just a start of a real precious friendship, but I was wrong.
it was actually a start for us to get attached to each other, to fall for each other.
days by days, we kept in touch, who knows, I was silently falling for you.
I thought it was a typical crush that wouldn't last long but again, I was wrong.
days passed by, we started to sense that we have feelings for each other but neither one of us would dare to confess.
when you had the guts to confess, I blew it off. I blew my own chance to have what I want.
then there, it started to be different.
things weren't same. I thought I could get rid of those feelings but again and again, I was wrong.
the feelings is still there, still strong eventho time passed by.
months and months we continued being friends, till one fine day, I was heartbroken.
something happened and that was a total blow off.
I tried doing every single thing just to forget you, forget the heartbreak, forget everything.
it was hard. I went through few nights with tears and few days with sobs.
but from day to day, I got better. I managed to get over.
and I convinced myself that I'm in love with you no more.
however, the day you lend your ears to my problems, I felt different.
that was when I realized that the feeling is still there.
we did went through ups and downs of a friendship.
until the day I got to call you mine.
it was another step. a big step.
sort of another start of a new thing. it was the first awkward thing that I actually like.
everything seems to be different in a good way.
everything seems to be wonderful and amazing.
from that day, till the moment I'm typing this, everyday is still different in a good way, wonderful, and amazing.
your plenty pros have completed my plenty cons and your little cons have completed my little pros.
how can I stop falling for you?
no wonder I was urged to knew you.
to feel happy, to feel like the most important person in the world :)
I don't want to let jealousy or "no-trust" destroy this wonderful love of ours.
I don't want to let anyone else intrudes this amazing relationship of ours.
do remember, 3 things, :
I LOVE YOU.
I ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
I FOREVER WILL LOVE YOU.
you're always at the top of my priority, in line with my family and friends.

sayang, would you hold my heart at all times and promise to be the only one who makes me feel like a princess  cause it seems that I just cant find anyone else who fits into this world of mine.

Dear Sharihan Luqman b Shahiruddin, we wouldn't know whats gonna happen next but I hope this relationship would last long. Amin.

Happy Birthday, Azfar :)

This is Azfar.
He was born on 9th August 1995.
Years later, we became bestfriends.
Till the day he accepted and offer to go to another school which is TIKL.
We rarely talk to each other nowadays. Haha faktor sekolah lain tu kot yang membuatkan rasa mcm awkward dan takda masa nak jumpa and lepak sama sama like dulu dulu.

Today, 9th August 2012.
He's officially 17! :)

So, Happy Birthday Azfar!

May Allah bless you always.

May all the good things comes your way.

Hopefully you'll have a great 17.

Goodluck in whatever you do....

Goodluck for SPM! :)

May all your dreams come true,

Take a very good care of yourself, :)
Happy Birthday Againnnnn! :)

Result Midterm :)

Assalamualaikum and hello readers :)
Well, dah makin berhabuk blog ni sebenarnya.
I'm just too lazy to update, and I got no time :(
Senior year is just so......hectic.
As usual, whenever I got my results, I'll post about it.
So, my midterm was just fine.
And here's my results.....

Alhamdulillah, no fail.
I just need to work more on the Es and Cs.
As for the Bs and As, I'm quite satisfied.
Haih kerajaan.. why la you menyusahkan us people by having this + - thingy...

However, I'm very grateful that I finally see an improvement in my result. Hiwhiw
No fail weh no fail! cukup membanggakan dah tu. hikhik

Okay thats all. Will be updating whenever I feel like I want to.

Assalamualaikum :)

Sekian lama tangan tak menaip.

Assalamualaikum and hello readers :)
Well, its been awhile since I last updated this blog.
So, life has been well for me.
Cuti?
Hmm macam biasa.
Went out few times, went to JB for a funeral and went to Perak.
Well, I like living in Perak. Eventho I got no friends there but still, I feel calm when I'm there
SO probably the second week I'll be working. InsyaAllah. I miss the kids so much. :(
Thats all for the time being.  BYeeE :)

Dalam hati.

Tersilap langkah, tersalah percaturan.

Tapi mungkin bermulanya satu langkah baru? 

Atau mungkin titik mulanya satu percaturan yang akan betul?

Siapa tahu. 

Usaha. Tawakal. Redha.

Kalau ada, ada lah.

Kalau takda, teruskan hidup macam ni.

Corakkan perubahan hidup sendiri.

Tiada lagi cerita cinta.

Tiada lagi dongeng bahagia.

Tiada lagi mimpi sempurna.

Tinggal derita yang akan pergi.

Tinggal sisa gembira yang akan reput.

Tinggal janji yang hilang dengan mimpi.

Tapi, dia itu, masih berdiri di sini. Jauh dalam ini.

Cant Stand It.

Obviously this picture was edited. hihi.

K anyways, I just miss this so much. I dont know why tonight, I cant stand it.
I just had to tell to you, my dearest bloggie.
I knw its some sort of stupid printscreen but this is one of the printscreens that I've been keeping.
Ahhh I miss this sort of thing so much. :'(

Result March Test

Alhamdulillah. This is what I got for my March test.
Gonna work extra for midterm :)
InsyaAllah I could. I believe in myself :)