Salah Fault.

urgh !
kebelakangan ni stress teramat sangat.
especially start daripada last tuesday.

first sebab tak dapat spend time with my old friends in sunway.
kena tipu dengan my mum cakap nak pergi OU , curve lah ikea lah.
last2 kat rumah jugak.

next, stress gila masa hari rabu.
taktau kenapa.
ada something yg buat i rasa macam tak kena.

memang haritu sangat tak kena !
its 17th of february and i'm fckin stressed !

main thing, stress sebab ayul !
omg its the first month and dye dah buat macam ni.
he made me cried.

second main thing, stress sebab nazrin !
dia emo.
and maybe its my fault.
but. i dont know how to apologize !
i've been saying sorry since i got home last night, but he just replied ok.
and tht shows he's still not okay.
till today, hm.

third thing, stress sebab sekolah !
urgh ! 1st march nanti start test.
but, i think i'm not ready enough :(


i takut sangat kalau i breakdown sebab all this stressful things.
i just need someone to talk to.
i've been crying almost all day long because of these things.
seriously need help .

siapa nak pinjamkan telinga untuk dengar saya cerita ?
dan siapa yang boleh kunci kan mulut untuk jadi penyimpan rahsia jiwa saya ?

betul betul perlukan seseorang.

emo

sorry kebelakangan ini aku memang emo dan emosi dan stressful sangat.
maa otak belum bisa berfungsi dengan baik sepenuhnya.
harap2 awal bulan tiga aku tak breakdown macam ni sebab nak ujian.

*sedang takut*

heartbroken.

again.
this is the second time.
liar. :(

Thanks.

thanks for reading the message.
i just need you to know that i still remember every single thing since 17th January 2010.
thanks fr this first month.
i just need you to confront me and solve this, IMMEDIATELY.
dont be such a coward.

Peniru Menggedik Meniru.

sedang saya boring tahap bosan untuk online,
tergerak naluri hati nak baca blog.
maka ternampak blog shafiqah radzi my secretbox. hehe.
then tertarik untuk MENG COPY PASTE entri dia sikit.
tajuknya, BERSEDIAKAH ANDA UNTUK BERCINTA KALI KETIGA.
ada certain soalan yang membuatkan i sendiri tertarik untuk copy paste dan jawab kat sini haha


1.Bersediakah anda untuk menerima kekasih yang ketiga?
ketiga ?
mungkin. haha. tidak. saya suka ada dua je. tiga lebih terlampau gatal buat apa simpan banyak2.


2. jikalau lelaki itu tak serius dengan anda ?
jangan serius dengan dia. walaupun sayang, katakan tidak. supaya tak berharap sangat.


3. Apa anda akan buat jikalau lelaki tak tego ?
okay saya rasa soalan ini macam terkena sikit tepat kat muka :D
saya rasa, saya pun akan tarik muka dan emo jealous gila dan mula taknak tego jugak lah.


4. Apa yang anda akan buat setelah dia penat melelah selepas main bola sepak ?
HAHAHA ! sesungguhnya saya dengan shafiqah secretbox tuh memang mempunyai lelaki yang lebih kurang sama ciri2 nya. pemain bola. maka, bagi soalan ini, saya hanya akan kata, rest lah :D
*macam siot kan.*



5. kalau diberi peluang keluar bersama, mana anda nak pergi ?
tempat di mana tiada orang lain melainkan hanya dia dan saya. *aww mula jiwang*



6. kalau dia main kayu 3 ?
kayu je ? i main ranting, pokok semuaa boleh ! haha.
tak. saya akan memberi dia dua pilihan. sama ada cukup sampai disini atauuu, sukahati kau lah jantan !


7. kalau anda boleh berjumpa dengan dia setiap hari rabu je, anda ?
tak kisah pun. takyah jumpa pun takpe. ustazah kate, tak elok bjumpe. nanti ade setan datang. haha!


8. apa yang anda doakan kebahagiaan dia ?
HAHA saya doakan dia jadi makin pandai bijaksana untuk bercinta, berkasih sayang, dan pandai segalanya. supaya dia makin tinggi dari saya dan supaya dia tetap sayang saya walau saya suka cemburukan dia.


oh and satu lagi soalan tambahan !
9. kalau dia tak pernah kata iloveyou, awak akan. . .
er. alah bia ah. saya bercinta memang takda orang nak kata i love you pun :|
tiba2 keluar ayat emo. haha
entah lah. itu tanda tak serius atau mungkin terlalu pemalu untuk berkata demikian sebab memikirkan effect nya pada aku yang kuat perasan :DD


haha ! ini entri yang sangat ditiru.
shafiqah radzi, ampun yaa !


kesimpulan bagi pokok utama persoalan tadi,

saya memang bersedia menerima lelaki ke tiga sebagai cinta monyet yang ke dua belas dalam hidup saya.
ANDAI dia betul2 serius. haha

Apakah ?

saya adalah pesakit yang dijangkiti oleh penyakit berjangkit daripada pembawa penyakit berjangkit.

saya terjangkit daripada shafiqah radzi yang menjangkiti saya dengan perkataan2 nya. hehe

okay dah cukup sampai situ intro.
some will know why i put tht title and cerita tentang penyakit berjangkit. i mean, perkataan berjangkit.
bukan tiru, tapi terjangkit.

update lagi.
harini agak happy.
pagi tadi emo dengan dia.
then petang dia pujuk.
I LOVE YOU FASS. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH OKAY <3

today aja kawad.
still confused.
and agak bengang dengan senior sial tuu.
aku command tak salah la wey !
kau je yang belitkan urat2 otak adik2 rumah biru aku.
kau nak sangat, kau command la. jangan cari aku.

tahun ni budak kawad okay je.
semua jenis boleh dengar cakap.
except for a form 1 boy.
dah la this year ada masa 2 hari je nak practice.
luckily my juniors ada basic kawad. so its kinda great :D


i dont know why today i jealous gilaa.
emo lebih.
menggelabah terlampau.


especially part yang tiba2 kena jadi PBSM tadi.
aku tak bertugas, tapi sukarela tolong orang.
saja showing konon reti.
nasib baik yang sorang tuh injured yg senang dirawat hanya menggunakan cream COUNTERPAIN.
tau apa itu ?
itu adalah ubat untuk cramp, *betul ke spelling?*
then kalau macam terkejut muscle2 otot2 besa, boleh la sapu counterpain.
and lagi satu budak yang degil sangat suruh letak kaki atas PC BOX pun amik masa 15 minit padahal cramp je. nangis2 dah -.-

tadi first time merawat orang TANPA bantuan senior okay.
best ! :D
rasa macam fun jugak nak menggelabah gelaban cari ubat, pikir2 ubat apa nak letak. pikir2 apa patut suruh budak tuh buat.

agak fun la harini.
dengan pagi sekolah yang tak stressing langsung.
gelak2 time agama dengan mira aliaa and shyra.
then kutuk2. and tertubuhlah shortform BH ! haha

i think thats all bout today.
hope tomorrow will be a good day :)


lots of love, NRL <3

Update.

life is currently kinda miserable.

family ?
um yeah just fine ;)

friends ?
fine too i guess.
just, still not settle with tht girl -.-

school ?
prefect, just fine. evryting is goin well i think.
classmates, hope we'll be a great family. i love you 3A's.
i'm starting to get closer to my classmates especially the guys.
teachers, just fine.
homeworks, stressing me out :(

boyfriend ?
i'm waiting for you to end this.
because i know u dont even need me anymore. :((

thats all i guess.
byee :)

It Turns Out To Be ?

today, i met my old friends, which is still my bestfriends,
Shazwani Zulkiffli and Shazwan Zulkiffli.
we catched up a lot of things.
ate french fries, share a few hugs. haha
talk about lots of things.
gossips, kutuk here there. haha
recall almost all our memories together.


then we decided to go to the MPC and play basketball like we used to do those days.
since the court's grill was already terkopak by idk who,
we get in there by tht lobang. haha
i threw a few shots.
then i sit at the center of the court.
followed by icca, and nani.
the guys were still throwing some shots.

at around 6.30, i saw some badminton athletes were walking down the bukit.
and i was like, "ini kalau mape ade, habislah"
and suddenly, betol2 mape ade !
he wanted to walk down the bukit.
but maybe the boys didnt saw him so they keep on bunping the ball..
and i guess mape heard it.
so, he turn around, and stares at the MPC like, LAMA GILAAA :O
i perasan, i terus like bgtau, "weh mape mape !! blah blah!!"

and we were like, running like hell carik nak keluar ikut mana.
and we found another lubang dekat belah belakang. dekat dengan kuil.
terus cepat2 kitorang sorok dekat semak.
i was shaking.
that bujang tua still pandang MPC,
we lepak fr a while at the tepi kuil.
then since its 6.50 and nani had to go bck, we decided to go home.

i takut, cuak, gila kebebeh punya cuak.
i takut dia point kitorang kat perhimpunan.
i tak kisah kalau nk settle blakang2.
but not by announcing it at phimpunan.
i cuak gila babeee punya cuak.
=_='


p/s : currently, cuak kebebeh!

today :D

ahaha.
like what mira said, its february!
and i have just about another few months for my PMR !
yeah myra,
you, me, shyra and aliaa and others of our class will increase the number of straight As in our school.
hopefully we'll happily cry when we get our results nanti :D

hah acceyh i dah cakap pasal pmr mcm mira :))

relationship ?
err. single kot ? ENTAH !
i dont wanna think bout it.

friendship ?
haihh.
i have no problems with you,
but why you seems to have so much problems with me?
HAHA

school ?
junior SUCKS !!!
nak pandang kerek apahal ?
lu ta puas hati, bak datang.
gua, aliaa, shyra, mira mmg tk tahan tengok muka korang.
rasa nak gelak guling2.
mana2 pegy pun nak ikut ke dik ?
perlu eh tunjuk fuck kat aliaa shyra mira ?
perlu eh hari2 kat kantin usha kitorang ?
tau lah kitorang hotstuff.
nk usha2 pulakk.
kitorang semua STRAIGHT okay!
bukan lesbo -.-

thats all. HAHA

Friend,

friend,
why ?
i know you dont like me,
or should i say, u HATE me.
but, why do you have to hate others too ?
why do you have to blame them ?
why ?

friend, why dont you just CONFRONT me ?
lets settle this down.
as matured teenagers.

i know u've been hating me for so long.
and u also influence others to hate me.
and u've succeed to make them hate me.
some of them still hating me till today.

but i dont mind.
i dont blame you.
i'm happy when someone hates me.
especially those who i call BESTFRIENDS.

just admit that.
MOJ :D
i hav no hard feelings.
but stop torturing others just because you dont like me.
opps! correction, HATE me. :))

it's okay for you to take some of my belongings or whatever,
took my family members, boyfriends, girlfriends or whatever,
but, when it comes to friends,
dont hate them just because u hate me.
you should learn this, friendship is not a game !

keep on influencing people to hate me.
please remind that the world is not just about you.
its about others too :)